1. Patricia Yager Delagrange
    November 16, 2011 @ 4:07 pm

    Hey, Alica! I couldn’t find anything about Hideaki.


  2. Shannon Esposito
    November 16, 2011 @ 6:22 pm

    Okay, first of all…that is a really big spider picture *shiver* and HOLY batman! What an amazing story! I can not believe he even found his mother…seriously?! I’m speechless.


    • alicamckennajohnson
      November 19, 2011 @ 4:46 pm

      It’s such a great story- I cried the first time I read it. And the spider looks big, but really that flower is being held between two fingers, it’s very small. Perception is crazy isn’t it?


  3. Mel Corbett
    November 16, 2011 @ 6:24 pm

    wow, what a badass – Patricia’s right though, the link is broken. Try taking off the // at the end.

    Now, if he can do that, I should be able to submit my graduation app essays, right?


    • alicamckennajohnson
      November 19, 2011 @ 4:44 pm

      Yes, if we measure our tasks by his then we should be able to get a ton done. I’ll see if I can fix the link- thanks.


  4. gingercalem
    November 16, 2011 @ 9:13 pm

    Wow, Alica, your blog came to me at the exact time I needed to read this. I’m right there with you. Every word! I’ve been a funk lately and I know it’s different levels of fear for different outcomes. But I haven’t figured out a way to deal with it either. So I can’t offer advice but I can offer you some company! 🙂


    • alicamckennajohnson
      November 19, 2011 @ 5:24 am

      I’m all for company. Grab some wine and chocolate and we’ll ponder the universe together 🙂
      I wish I had advice to offer- I know for me I have to exercise- it makes a huge difference in how I cope with stress.


  5. coleen patrick
    November 16, 2011 @ 9:20 pm

    Beautiful flower, super scary spider!
    Thanks for sharing that link–very powerful story that certainly gives me perspective!!


    • alicamckennajohnson
      November 19, 2011 @ 5:26 am

      Thanks Coleen! In reality both flower and spider are really tiny. Perspective is such an intersing thing.


  6. Lesann
    November 17, 2011 @ 12:25 am

    Everything is relative isn’t it? I’d heard Hideaki’s story (much less enthusiastically told) and was impressed by how events try us in different ways. I’d like to think more of us would follow his lead if the necessity arose. It’s also a good parable for, wow, my life is pretty darn easy. I’m constantly reminded of that reality when I think of all the other lives I could be living.

    (potty mouth alert – those with sensitive eyes, stop reading now)

    This probably won’t be of any value, but here’s the wisdom I’ve learned from making some truly spectacular mistakes in my life, pared down to a haiku (not even a really angry one).

    Just fucking do it
    Because it cannot hurt much
    and it just might help.

    The things that make me nervous, frighten me, and produce the knee wobbles are usually the very things I need to simple try. We each find our way – lately mine has just been to walk out there and do it. Insecurity is like flab – poke it, work it, move it and it becomes muscle. There’s a messed up metaphor. lol


    • alicamckennajohnson
      November 19, 2011 @ 5:33 am

      Best haiku ever! I love it- and I frequently have days like that. I’m trying to work my flab into something better- a graphic metaphor but very real. 🙂 It doesn’t matter what is holding us back we all need to strap on some SCUBA gear and dive into the murky waters- who knows what will happen, we just might save a life. Wow I think I need a campy alert on that one.


  7. August McLaughlin
    November 18, 2011 @ 1:50 am

    Love your honesty and determination, Alica. And WOW, is all I can say about Mr. Akaiwa.

    The only advice I can give is this: write anyway. I find that once I’m words, paragraphs or pages deep in the process, fears trickle away and confidence emerges. Put another way, I ignore myself and focus on the page.


    • alicamckennajohnson
      November 19, 2011 @ 2:51 pm

      Thanks August- you’re correct if I just keep writing and don’t let myself get in the way things get done and dealt with. Eventually LOL


  8. Jolyse Barnett
    November 18, 2011 @ 12:48 pm


    You had the bravery to utter the words I feel. Fear is a huge part of our human make-up, and I truly believe if I can vanquish self-doubts and worries, I can accomplish anything. Thanks for the inspiration. 🙂


    • alicamckennajohnson
      November 19, 2011 @ 4:40 pm

      Thanks Jolyse I’m thrilled and blushing that you found my post inspiring. It’s true- overcoming fear is a huge step towards creating the life we want.


  9. Pamela Nightingale
    December 14, 2011 @ 4:42 am

    Hi Alica. Just wanted to drop you a note and say congratulations for getting the gumption to self-publish your own story! I read Gypsy Caravan last year, and came back to find the extra “chapter” so happy for you!


    • alicamckennajohnson
      December 19, 2011 @ 1:30 pm

      Thank you so much Pamela! I hope to eventually have it done- I have book two written and I’m editing it. Hopefully it won’t take as long to get it out. LOL!


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