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  1. charismaloy
    April 4, 2012 @ 6:26 am

    I spent the first twenty four years of my life not knowing what home felt like. I could not take that deep breath because I always had to be “on”. I had to fit somebody else’s image of who I should be, and who I really was got me labled and often shunned. I did not fit the mold, therefore there must be something wrong with me. Ten years ago, I found home. For the first time in my life I found peace in my soul. What defines home? Acceptance. People may not approve or understand who and what I am, but that accept that it is me. They don’t put labels on me unless I claim the label. They may wonder, but they don’t presume to know.

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    • alicamckennajohnson
      April 4, 2012 @ 9:24 pm

      Charis- I am so glad you have found home for yourself and acceptance. It’s funny I’ve actually had to deal with label and fitting in more as an adult then as a kid- even in high school. Keeping balanced within myself has been a huge challenge.

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  2. Bill Jones, Jr.
    April 4, 2012 @ 12:40 pm

    I love this story. I would be very cool as an integral part of a character. As a kid, we moved around a bit – Washington, D.C. to Virginia, to Oakland, CA, back to D.C. and Virginia. I went to 5 elementary schools before we settled down.

    Nothing ever made me feel like home; however, I was close to my mom. As long as she was there, I was good.

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    • alicamckennajohnson
      April 4, 2012 @ 9:29 pm

      Thanks Bill- I never thought of using it before, but it would be a interesting show of character. I use to live in Walnut Creek CA- on the other side of the tunnel- you know the yuppie people.
      Both of my parents were with me for most of the moves- they separated when I was 16 but it was odd how I looked to those stars more then them, even tho they were there for me.

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  3. Jennette Marie Powell
    April 4, 2012 @ 1:57 pm

    Those pictures are beautiful! I love Alaska – went for vacation once, would love to go back sometime. I’ve never lived outside of Ohio, so it’s hard to imagine feeling at home without distinct seasons or highly variable weather in March/April!

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    • alicamckennajohnson
      April 4, 2012 @ 9:30 pm

      I currently live in Tucson AZ and while there are changes, it isn’t the four seasons, I miss that sometimes.

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  4. greenfreaks
    April 4, 2012 @ 9:34 pm

    home… for me it is being with my people. honestly though when we moved from oregon to az when i was 13 i didn’t feel home at all until i met mike. now, it is where ever we are. i feel at home in this rental, when we lived in tucson, or both places in maine… all home because we were together. 🙂

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    • alicamckennajohnson
      April 6, 2012 @ 1:12 pm

      I wonder if now as an adult I would look for the Big Dipper or if being with my family would be all that I need. I haven’t left Tucson since I was 18.

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  5. Kim
    April 4, 2012 @ 10:35 pm

    I like your story about the Big Dipper! I guess I don’t have any tangible way of feeling at home. I’ve moved many times and have always felt at home wherever I am. I also feel “at home” when I’m at the dojo or other places where I feel or have felt a strong sense of community. Maybe I carry home around inside of myself!

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    • alicamckennajohnson
      April 6, 2012 @ 1:18 pm

      I think being comfortable within yourself and feeling at home where you are is a good thing. I tend to look outside of myself for support and validation.

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  6. Karen McFarland
    April 4, 2012 @ 11:02 pm

    Hi Alica! I love how you gage you happiness more from the universe than where you stand on this earth. Interesting that you can always count on those beautiful stars and galaxies to be right there where they were placed. Hmm. Anyway, I am familiar with Tucson. I lived in North Phoenix for almost twenty years until last year when my husband and I moved back to SoCal. We left our two grown sons there along with other family. But there are some amazing areas in Tucson. I always liked that it had the feel of a small city and how the mountains surrounded it. And talk about seeing stars at night. Wow, can you ever see the stars! I love Arizona, but I don’t miss the heat. I did enough heat to last me for a long time. Do tell me, how is Tucson doing? And do you like living there? Great post! Thanks for sharing! 🙂

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    • alicamckennajohnson
      April 6, 2012 @ 1:20 pm

      Hey Karen! I like Tucson a lot being a College town it has so many things going on! I’m always surprised when I talk to my sister who lives in Philly and tell her about some fun event and she says she wishes there was something like that near her.
      Of course in the summer I would dearly love to escape the heat.

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  7. Julie Glover
    April 4, 2012 @ 11:15 pm

    I feel more at home with the sound of an ocean. I grew up in Corpus Christi, Texas, and although the beach was a 30-minute drive away, it was always there within reach. I lived in West Texas, Central Texas, and New Mexico for a while, but when I returned to the Houston area, I could once again drive 30 minutes and hear the waves rushing onto the sand and the gulls squawking overhead. Home.

    Nice, Alica.

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    • alicamckennajohnson
      April 6, 2012 @ 1:22 pm

      If I go to long without being near the ocean I get twitchy. Thankfully the group home I work at takes the kids to CA every summer for a few days and I get my ocean fix, of course I feel bad that my hubby and kids can’t go. But I need some perky at this job.

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  8. Jolyse Barnett
    April 4, 2012 @ 11:21 pm

    What a beautifully simple, heartfelt post, Alica. I have four Holly Hobby dolls that I moved from my childhood home to our first apartment to our second apartment to the home where we now live. I cannot imagine giving them away. They need to come with me. Not sure why.

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    • alicamckennajohnson
      April 6, 2012 @ 1:23 pm

      How sweet! I have a few things I’ve drug with me from my childhood, but nothing with that attachment. Thanks Jolyse.

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  9. August McLaughlin
    April 5, 2012 @ 12:56 am

    Other than my parents’ house, I’ve never felt more home than I do in LA. And I’ve never felt more at home in LA than I have with my hubby. Throw in our pets and most any place works. 😉 Great post!

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    • alicamckennajohnson
      April 6, 2012 @ 1:25 pm

      I don;t know if I’ve ever felt that way about a place. I really like Tucson and would miss it if we left, except for the heat, but I think I could live in a different place. Thanks August!

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