Today I have a quote for you. I love quotes in my YA novel each chapter starts with a quote. My plan is to posts quotes here that are simply too long to work for my novel, but moved me.
“There are very few human beings who receive the truth, complete and staggering, by instant illumination. Most of them acquire it fragment by fragment, on a small-scale, by successive developments, cellularly, like a laborious mosaic.”
I am in the middle of a period of rediscovery of who I am. Not only am I working on seeing myself as a writer, I am also a mom of kids who go to school- after homeschooling for years. If these weren’t enough changes I have come to realize that my mom who did the best she could with what she had was an emotionally and mentally abusive person. I was good at staying on her good side and was shocked after talking to my family at how she had treated them. I didn’t really know my mom.
I have chosen to do a 100 day meditation on my mom to try and discover who I am, what I’m holding onto and how that relates back to her. I have been shocked at the discoveries, and I’ve only done it for 35 days. What else will I discover about myself as I go through this process?
At 37 I didn’t expect to still be figuring out who I am. But that’s okay. Life is a journey and a process, and a constant balancing act and re-invention of ones self.
What discoveries have you made about yourself recently? Do you search for yourself or do hidden truths seem to sneak up on you in dark alleys and jump you when you least expect it?
Lovely post, Alica. Hopefully we learn things about ourselves all along our journey through life. I’m certainly not the same person I was when I was a teenager or in my 20’s. I have changed and learned and grown throughout the years. I know what you mean, though, about your mom. My two older sisters describe our mother in a completely different light than I do and I ask myself, “where was I” when that stuff was going on?
That is how I felt- I was listening to their memories and felt like I had grown up in an alternate reality.
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